Dear, T. Ray
It has been a long time since I have heard from you - ever since that day you stormed out of the Pink House here in Tiburon, SC. Many years have elapsed since the last time I saw you - twenty years ago-, and I know that this is a bizarre thing to say, but I miss you. I never thought I would ever come to a point in my life where I would miss having a dad. I have had a lot of time on my hands lately which I have spent thinking about Sylvan, and all the years you mistreated me. I have come to realize that it wasn’t that you didn’t love me, if not, you missed Deborah. As you stood there in front of the Black Mary in the Pink House with your hand pulling tightly on my hair and your mouth screaming out “you never should have left me!”, was when I finally realized you never wanted my mother to leave us. I realize that this was as calamitous for you as it was for me. I never thought about thinking how you felt, I was never meticulous to you behavior. I forgive all your mistakes, wishing you could forget mine. I love you daddy, and always did even though you didn’t back.
My life in Tiburon, has been marvellous. We –August, Zach, and I – are working very hard keeping our Black Madonna honey quality at the best we can, but with all that we swelter it makes it harder for us to work. I have learnt so many things about bees, which I never even thought were possible. I have learnt how to drive a car, thanks to August who taught me some years ago. Know instead of August driving us to the bee hive, I do. I have been given so many opportunities down there in Tiburon, which wouldn’t have been possible without having August, June, and Rosseleen by my side. They have assimilated me into their everyday life, which was one of the only wishes I ever wanted.
Zack proposed several months ago to marry him- I said yes. It wasn’t a shock though, I was expecting it for some time before. Our wedding seems imminent, though it is a month away. The wedding wouldn’t be something big, though it will be taking place in the Pink House. The sisters are coming over, and they say they will lionize me on that special day to come. Whenever I see them, they tease me and tell me they’ve conspired something great for my wedding. You are invited if wanted, but it is not mandatory. I would love it if you could make it to be able to see the women who used to be a young girl what seemed to be a few months ago.
I know we had many dissensions between us two, but I don’t believe that is should keep us separate forever. I hope you apprehend the message I’m trying to get across to you, and take it into consideration. I don’t really mean to interrogate you, but how have you been? How’s your health, and the farm? Hopefully it isn’t a total anarchy, I know how unorganized you can be. Take care!
Love, Lily
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